idol - rapper.
unsure.
single.
01/23/2001.
23.
Dragon (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
|
Post by Ah Shieon on Jul 11, 2021 20:16:13 GMT -8
Shieon squeezed her eyes shut after Elena showed her the Instagram post that tipped her off to her being trans. She heard what Elena said, her words of comfort, but it didn't help. She was half expecting her mom to come through the door and try to take her home right that minute, but when it didn't happen, she looked up at Elena. Her eyes were watery, but she managed to not cry. She wrapped her arms around herself, "you swear?" She asked softly, sniffling a little. She took a deep breath and looked at the floor. "I've been bullied ever since coming out, my parents are terrified of what can happen if I'm outed. I don't want it to screw over the rest of the group, all of you, like me, dreamed of this." A tear finally fell, and she was quick to wipe it away.
|
|
Main Vocal, Lead Dancer of J.B.N..
Bisexual.
Single.
04/13/2005.
19.
Rooster (Korea)
Authored by Velexa.
Offline.
|
Post by Elena Moon on Jul 11, 2021 20:24:31 GMT -8
Elena felt bad. She hadn't meant to cause such turmoil for Shieon. "Can I hug you?" she asked, staying in her seat until she got an answer.
"I swear, I won't tell anyone. And I'm sorry for forcing you into this position. I'm too used to Spain and my family where something like this is honestly not that big of a deal." She shook her head at herself, "Sorry, that came out wrong. I am in no way, shape or form discounting all the difficult experiences you've had here, it just never occurred to me that it was something you would be afraid of sharing."
She stood up and bowed to Shieon, the feeling foreign to her, but she was trying to meet Shieon where she was. "I'm so sorry, I know I'm like a bull in a china shop with my words and actions. I am sorry I made you uncomfortable, please let me know what I can do to help right now."
|
|
idol - rapper.
unsure.
single.
01/23/2001.
23.
Dragon (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
|
Post by Ah Shieon on Jul 11, 2021 20:31:07 GMT -8
Shieon nodded at the offer of a hug, but the comfort and positive words seem to make cry more. "I'm not mad," she said between sniffles, "or upset at you. Just..." She took some deep breaths. "Between only my family and some extended family accepting me, I was planning to keep it secret for as long as possible, and then I just... It was stupid to show you the pride sets but I got too excited at the thought of there possibly being someone else who was..." She paused to take a proper breath, "who was also a part of the community." She explained. She noticed Elena seemed to be feeling pretty uncomfortable with her crying, and she wiped away her tears and let out a teary laugh, holding her arms out for a hug.
|
|
Main Vocal, Lead Dancer of J.B.N..
Bisexual.
Single.
04/13/2005.
19.
Rooster (Korea)
Authored by Velexa.
Offline.
|
Post by Elena Moon on Jul 11, 2021 20:39:09 GMT -8
Elena rushed over and gathered Shieon into a hug. "You're so tiny," she cooed as she practically picked her up.
"I'm so happy you shared those pictures with me, and I only know because I have some cousins who are trans, so I'm pretty familiar with all the flags. My family is all really close so everyone is all up in everyone else's business. I've even given one of my cousins their testosterone shot."
She sat down next to Shieon and held her hand, " I'm bisexual and I like Seojin." She wasn't going to out Seojin but she wanted Shieon to know that she wasn't alone.
|
|
idol - rapper.
unsure.
single.
01/23/2001.
23.
Dragon (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
|
Post by Ah Shieon on Jul 13, 2021 20:21:23 GMT -8
Shieon choked out a laugh at Elena's comment about her size. She wiped away her tears, finally calming down, "I don't think I realized... how much I wanted someone in this company to know." She smiled at Elena, "That's great that your family is so supportive."
"Thank you for sharing that with me." She said quietly once she had calmed down enough to talk normally. "I'm sorry I got emotional, just... my parents are super worried about me and people finding out. They seemed ready to pull me from the company if anyone so much as hinted that they knew." She wiped away a final tear and gave Elena a smile, "So, you wanted me to paint your nails, yes?"
|
|
Main Vocal, Lead Dancer of J.B.N..
Bisexual.
Single.
04/13/2005.
19.
Rooster (Korea)
Authored by Velexa.
Offline.
|
Post by Elena Moon on Jul 14, 2021 15:57:32 GMT -8
Elena gave Shieon another hug and squeezed her tight, "I'm sorry to have forced you into the open like this and I'm so grateful you were willing to share this side of you with me. Consider me your ally, accomplice, bodyguard, whatever you need. And if your parents come around, I know nothing," she said, zipping her lips.
"I know I talk a lot, but I can keep my mouth shut." She let the older girl go and looked at her nails, "yes, I'd love my nails painted. Should we wait until the food arrives so I can help carry it?"
|
|
idol - rapper.
unsure.
single.
01/23/2001.
23.
Dragon (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
|
Post by Ah Shieon on Jul 19, 2021 17:36:51 GMT -8
Shieon finally stopped sniffling and laughed again, giving Elena another hug. "Thank you, Elena, this means a lot to me. I took a risk showing you those particular pictures and I didn't expect it to rile me up like it did, especially when you reacted positively." She frowned a bit and tried to look serious, "but yes, if my parents come around, you know nothing."
"Oh yes, I... already forgot we ordered food. It would probably be good to wait." She paused a bit and grabbed Elena's hands, holding them gently in her own. "So then, tell me which flags you want, and what your preferences are, like if you want them in a certain order, or like, a French tip, or whatever. Sparkles are a must. I think I have the full rainbow in sparkles, and light blue and pink, but no white sparkly. We can improvise."
|
|
Main Vocal, Lead Dancer of J.B.N..
Bisexual.
Single.
04/13/2005.
19.
Rooster (Korea)
Authored by Velexa.
Offline.
|
Post by Elena Moon on Jul 21, 2021 15:41:54 GMT -8
Elena was truly touched at how open Shieon was being and a little angry with herself for being her usual, pushy self. She squeezed Shieon's hand in hers when the older girl took hers. "I am sorry for being so blunt and i will keep your secret," she promised.
She squeezed again, then shifted her thoughts to alphabet mafia flags. "Well I definitely want the bisexual and trans flags, but I think I also want pride, ace, pan, demi, lesbian, genderqueer, aro, agender, enby and poly too." Elena took a second to count, "I think I need more fingers," she giggled.
|
|
idol - rapper.
unsure.
single.
01/23/2001.
23.
Dragon (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
|
Post by Ah Shieon on Jul 30, 2021 16:41:20 GMT -8
Shieon giggled, "You need about two more so far." She told Elena lightly. "I can layer a couple of them, like making a heart with the aro flag over the ace flag, like this," she said, showing Elena a picture of an ace flag with an aro flag heart overlaid on it. "I'll probably only be able to fit that on your thumbs though. Probably the pan and bi flag for the other thumb?" She smiled and gave Elena a wink, "And that would solve the needing extra fingers thing."
|
|
Main Vocal, Lead Dancer of J.B.N..
Bisexual.
Single.
04/13/2005.
19.
Rooster (Korea)
Authored by Velexa.
Offline.
|
Post by Elena Moon on Jul 30, 2021 18:02:50 GMT -8
"Unnie! You have the best ideas!" Elena squeaked, throwing herself across the table to hug Shieon. "I trust you completely, do with me as you please" She said offering her hands.
"Oh, right, waiting for food," she said retracting her hands. "Did you always want to be an idol?" she paused, thinking a bit, "I don't want you to think that I'm not interested in your life, and story and journey, but I also don't want to you to feel pressured into telling me anything. Does that makes sense?" She hoped she'd said it right.
|
|
idol - rapper.
unsure.
single.
01/23/2001.
23.
Dragon (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
|
Post by Ah Shieon on Aug 3, 2021 18:54:32 GMT -8
Shieon giggled as Elena liked her idea, a bit startled by the hug, but at this point she knew to expect a lot of skinship from Elena. She'd been warned. It didn't really bother her, but it still took a bit of adjusting considering she never really had friends growing up.
She thought a moment and shook her head, but then seemed to hesitate and change her mind. "I... Yes and No? I've honestly never had an interest in singing, but watching dancers always seemed so cool to me. But every time I tried to imitate them, I sucked... Like... Really sucked." She said with a laugh. "I don't know what got into me to audition, but I didn't do it out of some curiosity to see if I could or anything. It was something I truly wanted to do. And it still is. I think even though the desire was there, I was convinced it wouldn't happen. There's two whole trans girls in the history of K-Pop, and they only ever achieved moderate success. Harisu was well-known, but never truly popular. And almost no one remembers Choi Hanbit. I stayed in the closet because I didn't want to ruin anyone else's dreams." She thought about mentioning the part that it could still happen. That someone could easily look into family records and see her birth certificate hadn't been legally changed. That was probably something she should work on now that she'd had SRS, but then there was the awkward conversation she'd have to have about why her birth certificate said male and her ID said female.
|
|
Main Vocal, Lead Dancer of J.B.N..
Bisexual.
Single.
04/13/2005.
19.
Rooster (Korea)
Authored by Velexa.
Offline.
|
Post by Elena Moon on Aug 4, 2021 10:30:57 GMT -8
Elena leaned her head on her hands and nodded along, happy Shieon was willing to open up. "I get that way too. Kind of defensive, because when people ask me if I always wanted to be an idol my answer is kind of no." She shrugged, "I don't think I really know what I want to do with my life, but I love to sing and I love to dance and I love to make people happy, so that kind of all points towards being an idol."
She shook her head at herself, "sorry, we were talking about you, not me. I understand you must have a lot of fear and apprehension about the whole 'ruining other's dreams' thing, but I want you to know that, for me, by this point," she reached out and took Shieon's hand in her own and gave it a light squeeze, "my dream includes being in a group with you, and I'm certain Hayun and the others feel the same way."
|
|
idol - rapper.
unsure.
single.
01/23/2001.
23.
Dragon (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
|
Post by Ah Shieon on Aug 8, 2021 9:54:21 GMT -8
Shieon listened to Elena, glad she wasn't the only one who didn't always have this dream. all the others seemed like they had been practicing for this their whole lives. To Shieon, it seemed like it'd be fun. She shook her head and took Elena's hands in her own. "You don't have to apologize." She smiled warmly at Elena. "I'm glad you think so, and I'd like to believe the other girls feel the same. I hope one day, int he future, I can come out to our fans and be accepted, but Korea isn't quite ready for that, so until then, I'll stay quiet. But if people think I'm going to be quiet about my support for minorities, then they are wrong." She said confidently. Just because she couldn't stand up and be open for herself, didn't mean she couldn't encourage others to be. She wanted the group to be safe before she thought about coming out.
She took her hands back, and was about to mention she'd go collect the colors of nail polish she'd need to do Elena's nails, when the phone that used to tell them they had visitors rang. Shieon went over to the phone and picked it up. "Hello? Oh, they are? Thank you, I'll be right down!" She said a soft goodbye before hanging up the phone and looking to Elena. "Our food is waiting for us in the lobby!"
|
|
Main Vocal, Lead Dancer of J.B.N..
Bisexual.
Single.
04/13/2005.
19.
Rooster (Korea)
Authored by Velexa.
Offline.
|
Post by Elena Moon on Aug 10, 2021 6:32:17 GMT -8
Elena was so happy they'd gotten the chance to have this talk and that her overly nosy and loud personality hadn't ruined it. "Well, until that day comes, I'm here for you. I've got your back."
She jumped a little at the phone ringing, "has that thing always been there?" she laughed at herself. They'd been so involved with their conversation she'd kind of forgotten they'd ordered food at that point. "Let's go get it."
|
|
idol - rapper.
unsure.
single.
01/23/2001.
23.
Dragon (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
|
Post by Ah Shieon on Sept 12, 2021 11:58:41 GMT -8
Shieon giggled and nodded, "Yeah, but since we don't usually order out, you've probably never had to use it." She explained. So far, their manager usually brought them food. She took Elena's hand and slipped on some flats, waiting for Elena to be ready before leading them out the door and to the elevator that would bring them to the lobby, letting go of Elena's hand at that point. Once they were alone in the elevator, she smiled up at Elena. "And thank you, it's nice to know I'll have some definite support no matter what." She said quietly.
|
|