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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 28, 2020 21:06:28 GMT -8
Elena shook her head at the offered drink, "oddly enough, I really don't like sweet things," she explained.
She swung her and Seojin's connected hands, happy to be out. "Hmm, a free day? I guess it depends. I mean going out with friends to see a movie or go dancing maybe. Most of the time I help mi mama in the restaurant. She owns a family restaurant and literally the whole family has worked there at one time or another. So I spend most of my time, even the free time with family. Either cooking and joking with mis primos who are my age, or taking care of the little ones. I love playing with the little ones."
She couldn't help but smile while thinking about them. "What about you? What do you do one a free day? And more importantly, what do you do on a date?"
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Idol (leader and main dancer of J.B.N.).
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Post by Woo Seojin on Jul 28, 2020 22:20:43 GMT -8
Seojin shrugged and said, "I'm not that fond of sweets either. I get it quarter-sweet. I like tea though, and tapioca because it's chewy in a nice way."
Seojin smiled as she listened to Elena describe a day. She asked, "What are primos?"
She nodded though to the rest of it and said, "I've got a little sister, and it's always fun to play with her. I don't see her all that often because she lives in Chuncheon with my mom, and dad again now. My dad lived with me in Seoul for a few years while I was auditioning and going to high school before I got in to the company, but he moved back once I was living in the dorms."
Seojin managed to swallow her sip of tea without choking on it when Elena asked what she did on a date. She said, trying to keep her voice calm with mixed results, "I've never been on a date. On a free day, I mean, I'd usually just go dance. Or practice singing. That is before I was a trainee. I like going on walks in pretty places though, and athletic things in general. I go on runs sometimes too. If I don't to be outside, I like to read too."
She realized that it definitely didn't sound like she'd had many friends from how she talked about it. She'd always had to plan things to get the people she hung out with at school to do things, and sometimes she'd go out to noraebang with all of them, or go out dancing somewhere, but mostly, they'd been school friends, or dance class friends, or in a few cases both.
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 28, 2020 22:29:57 GMT -8
"Oh, primos means cousins. I've got a large family and we all kind of live together or nearby. So even though in my home it's only my mom, dad and myself, there are usually at least five other people at all times in our house, though they might not stay there." Elena explained.
"How old is your little sister? Do you miss your family much?" she asked.
"I don't know much about dates either. But I'm pretty sure I'd get some food and maybe share something to drink on a date," she grabbed Seojin's other hand and leaned forward, taking a sip of her milk tea since she'd declared it not very sweet. "I think I'd also walk hand in hand with my date," she lifted their clasped hands. "And I think I'd go somewhere nice and maybe take some pictures together. Hey, wait, aren't we going to take selcas?"
Elena crinkled her nose and laughed, "I think the company is having you take me on a date, unnie."
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Post by Woo Seojin on Jul 28, 2020 23:06:19 GMT -8
Seojin smiled and said, "My little sister was born in 2015, so she's six, uh five international age. I do miss my family, but they do come to visit fairly often. My dad works for a hotel chain, so he's able to pretty easily get a place to stay every few months for them."
Seojin looked down at their joined hands and blushed a little, but she didn't let go. She said softly, a touch nervous, "The manager told me to take some selcas with you and make sure that you were getting along OK. I may have come up with my own plans for today based on that."
She was shy of admitting that maybe she had kind of planned a date for the two of them, but those were things that friends could do together as well. She'd gone walking on the waterfront with Anya, and she definitely didn't think of Anya like that. Anya was still definitely just a kid to Seojin in some ways.
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 29, 2020 8:15:19 GMT -8
"I can't wait to meet your sister! She sounds adorable!" Elena said, rushing ahead a little and dragging Seojin along, excited to see the water though they weren't there yet.
"I'm not hearing you deny that this is a date," she teased. She paused and looked around to see if anyone was around, seeing no one, she lifted Seojin's hand and brushed her lips across her knuckles. "I'm glad you're taking me on a date," she said, putting their hands back to where they'd been before.
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Idol (leader and main dancer of J.B.N.).
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Post by Woo Seojin on Jul 29, 2020 10:07:20 GMT -8
Seojin laughed and said, "I'm sure that you and the other girls will meet her eventually. I should probably suggest to my parents that they meet my group mates the next time they're in town. They'll probably want to take us all out to dinner or something, but that will be after debut. Seomi, that's my little sister, can be a little shy though, sometimes even with me if she's not used to seeing me not through a screen because she's little and it's been a while. She warms up to people pretty quickly though once she gets over the initial nervousness about new people."
She honestly didn't know how her little sister would react to Elena. She hoped that her little sister would attach to her because she was bright and vibrant, but she could also see Seomi being a little bit scared initially because Elena could be loud.
She glanced around frantically when Elena kissed her hand, but a little bit of the tension left her frame when she realized no one was around. She was blushing and didn't look directly at Elena when she said, "Maybe a pre-date, a proto-date, an unofficial date. We're still thinking about it, remember. I want to spend time with you though, and this seemed fun and also useful."
She was also just a little bit pleased though. There was a fluttering feeling in her stomach that Elena wanted Seojin to be taking her on a date. As the waterfront came into view, though they still had one more street to cross, she pointed it out and said, "There's the waterfront park."
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 29, 2020 10:22:57 GMT -8
Elena nodded, "so I should try to be calm in my approach to Seomi. I can say it now, but I won't remember it when the time comes," she admitted.
She stuck her tongue out at Seojin regarding the 'pre-date, proto-date' statement. "If flirting can just be flirting, dating can just be dating, what's a proto-date?" She crinkled her nose at the idea, "you're thinking, I'm having fun."
She stood on her tiptoes to see the water better, "It's so pretty!" she rushed towards the street, waiting impatiently for their light to change. Once it did, she dashed across, leaving Seojin to follow her at her own pace. She rushed to the railing overlooking the water and took in a deep breath. This was likely the closest thing she'd get to beach for a while, so she wanted to take it in.
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Idol (leader and main dancer of J.B.N.).
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Post by Woo Seojin on Jul 29, 2020 10:59:01 GMT -8
Seojin sighed at Elena's approach and said, "One of us has to think about this stuff."
She sounded a little bit discouraged, but she didn't know how to explain to Elena entirely the societal difference. Among other things, idols weren't really supposed to date at all, especially not early in their career, whether that was a clause in the contract or just a known expectation. At least Dreams Ent was more in the category of companies that encouraged their idols to be discrete and not get themselves into avoidable scandals, but fan pressure was a real thing.
She followed Elena towards the water at a slightly slower pace, though she hurried a bit to not fall behind too much, keeping an eye on the other girl. It was nice seeing her gleeful enthusiasm at the sight of the river.
When she got to where Elena was staring out at the water, she put an arm around Elena's shoulders to try to show that she wasn't upset and said, sounding calmer, "It is pretty, isn't it? There's some sculptures and cool features along the water a little bit further down the way we're going to walk, but sometimes just the view without anything else is the best part. There's also some areas that are a little more like a proper beach, though I'm sure that the company will decide to go to the ocean beach with us at some point."
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 29, 2020 11:48:44 GMT -8
Elena shrugged at the idea of thinking things through. She was more of a doer and a feeler than a thinker.
When Seojin put her arm around her shoulders she looked back at her. "I'm not mad, you know? I get that we come from different backgrounds. Also, if I'm being honest, I couldn't actually date anyone until my family had met them. Maybe that's why I'm so..." she mimed an explosion with her hands, "all over the place with this. I don't have to really think about it until I tell my family I'm interested in someone, and I'd have to really like someone to do that."
She looked back out at the water. Then realizing it sounded like she didn't really like Seojin, she turned back quickly, trying to explain. "That's not what I meant. I mean, I'd have to prepare someone to meet my family, because if you think I'm pushy and forward just imagine me multiplied by like a hundred, and that'd be a single family member, then multiply that by like eighty, because you'd have to meet at least that many before I could get permission to date someone."
She felt like she was explaining it poorly and only digging herself in deeper. She sighed and turned back to the water, a little defeated.
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Idol (leader and main dancer of J.B.N.).
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Post by Woo Seojin on Jul 29, 2020 13:10:25 GMT -8
Seojin laughed then, kind of relieved. While Elena was being her demonstrative self, it sounded like they were closer to being on the same page than she'd been worried. She'd been a little scared that Elena wanted to push things faster than she'd said earlier.
She said, tone much lighter, hoping that Elena could hear the light teasing in her voice, "That is both reassuring, and not reassuring at all, you know. A little bit more time is important to me."
She thought on it for a second and then said softly, "Is it going to bother you that I wouldn't tell my family if I was actually dating someone until it got really really serious? I'm pretty sure that they'd be OK in the end, I know they love me, and my parents are pretty progressive in general, but I don't know how they'd handle it being me, and that's not a risk that I'm willing to take until I'm really sure about something."
She kept her arm around Elena, trying to focus on the fact that she did like that feeling, and she was pretty sure that she would want this to turn into real dating eventually if she kept this sort of feeling. She could see how where she stood on telling people, her family, might bother someone who seemed so willing to just tell their family these things, to not date until she had the go ahead that they liked the person. It seemed like such a different world.
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 29, 2020 17:27:23 GMT -8
"What's reassuring and not so reassuring about it?" Elena grinned playfully. "I think the biggest takeaway here should be that in my family, I'm the shy and quiet one. They're always checking on me and asking if I'm okay because I'm so shy and quiet. I act the exact same here that I do there."
She leaned into Seojin and snaked her arm around her waist, "I wouldn't be bothered about you not telling your family. That's your relationship to deal with as you see fit. Besides, if Korea lets me do things like this," she tapped her fingers on Seojin's waist where her hand was resting, "without batting an eye, I don't see why we wouldn't just be able to act normally."
"I mean, who makes out in front of their parents?" she made a face, "it's bad enough when parents think it's okay to make out in front of their kids," she scrunched up her nose and eyes.
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Post by Woo Seojin on Jul 29, 2020 17:52:26 GMT -8
Seojin stared out over the water and said, "It's a little reassuring to know that you actually have things that you would need to do and think through before diving into dating someone. It makes it feel less like it might just be an impulse that you might start and then stop just as suddenly. Which is reassuring because even if the consequences aren't as high stakes for that for you, at least there's something there to navigate."
She paused keenly aware of her arm around Elena, but she gave the other girl a little squeeze. She added, teasing tone back, "It's not reassuring entirely because you are a little overwhelming when there is just one of you. I enjoy your company, but you do keep surprising me."
She nodded at Elena's comment about being able to hug and said, "Skinship being normal and expected between friends does help. But it does also mean things like being aware that I don't favor you too much when it comes to skinship in public when we're out with the others. It's OK some because everyone is going to know right away that you are the most cuddly member, but I do hope that you get comfortable quickly with at least some of the others so that there's at least one other people that you hang off."
She sighed and said, "I'm going to have to talk to Josh-sunbae about what he does to keep track of everything with the interpersonal dynamics of a group and what it matters to worry about."
She realized that she'd made a little bit of a conversational leap, but she knew from something that Taehoon-oppa had said once that Josh-sunbae tracked these sorts of things, and if this entanglement with Elena developed further, Seojin knew that she would need to keep track of that sort of thing as well.
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 29, 2020 18:02:22 GMT -8
Elena pouted, "do I seem like I'm not serious? Like I'd just date and do things without a care?" She found herself withdrawing her arm from Seojin's waist, though not pulling away. "Just because I'm more at ease with the idea of flirting or going on a date doesn't mean I don't take it seriously."
She turned back to the water, miffed. After looking at the water for a few more seconds her mood had subsided. It took too much effort to be upset, it was why she was so happy all the time. "Hayun-nnie is used to me hanging off her, and I'm sure I could convince someone else. What do you mean by keep track of interpersonal dynamics?"
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Post by Woo Seojin on Jul 29, 2020 18:37:31 GMT -8
Seojin responded very seriously, "I think that this shows me that you are serious. That is what I wanted to see, but I didn't have enough information to be confident in my assessment, and you had me off balance enough to not feel like my judgement was being very good. We haven't known each other very long yet, so that was a piece of information that I was looking for. Sometimes, people with intense and fast emotions have emotions that burn quick and bright and then move on. I didn't want that to be what I was seeing, but I don't have enough experience to know."
She hoped that it was an explanation that would at least make Elena understand where she was coming from. She took time to get comfortable with people fully, and usually it took a while for people to get close to her. Elena had just dived right into that, past several protective layers of how Seojin normally interacted with people, and planted herself right there in Seojin's emotions. She didn't know what to think of it, but there was definitely a part of her that was scared of getting hurt and was glad that Elena had accepted that Seojin needed time to catch up to what was going on.
Seojin stared back over the water and said, "Things like shipping, what the fans think of how people are interacting. If maybe certain members need to show that they're friendly with each other, or others need to spread out their affections more. The goal is to avoid scandals and also to avoid people thinking that we don't like each other or aren't comfortable together as a group. The best situation is that we all actually like each other, and have a few people in the group that fans would think to ship us with, because then, especially if something actually is going on, it's not getting scrutinized differently from everyone else. Honestly, the boys probably have to worry about it more than us in some ways, but especially with this, I want to make sure that we're balancing that."
She thought for a minute and said, "I'm glad you and Hayun are getting along. Shieon-unnie and Anya should both warm up to you fast enough, I think. Jane's taken a while to warm up to anyone, so just be patient. She's shy."
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 29, 2020 18:47:01 GMT -8
"I get what you're concerned about, but I don't like that it has you making assumptions about my emotions and feelings. Like you said, we don't know each other well, so maybe you could give me the benefit of the doubt before jumping to the conclusion that my emotions will burn out." Elena tried to explain. She wasn't mad, maybe a little hurt. She always found herself looking for the best in people, even when it was hard to find, but people didn't seem to return that favor.
She listened to Seojin's explanation about interpersonal dynamics. "That sounds like a lot of work. Just tell me who to snuggle for which event." She started walking towards the park, "selcas at the park?"
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