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Post by Kim Kangwan on Apr 25, 2016 21:51:33 GMT -8
Kangwan smiled softly, catching Thomas' eyes and lowered his head. Things started to click in his head. Thomas had mentioned not being comfortable with telling someone, or sorting things out in his own head. The looks, the blushing, heck, even the initial avoidance, made sense. His minds seemed only able to repeat "Oh my god," though thankfully his voice wasn't working. He felt like his cheeks were on fire. He kind of liked Thomas, too, because he reminded him of his hyungs from his band, which brought back happy memories, and made him feel more comfortable. Even though he and Thomas were actually the same age, his band's leader was a bigger guy with a lot of sports skills, and getting to know Thomas, even just this little bit, let him know Thomas was just as big of a secret softie as his band's leader as well.
He'd never actually had a crush on a guy, and it was a bit confusing to have a crush on someone who reminded him so much of his hyung, but this was in fact, the case. He somewhat wondered if it was because Thomas was his age, and had gone through a similar trauma (though that was a horrible thing to bond over). He debated working up the nerves to ask the other boy on a date, but he swallowed the words before they could come out, too shy to ask, let alone feeling like it really wasn't the right time to do something like that. Another part of him wondered if he was reading his classmate entirely wrong, and it was something else that made Thomas freeze like that. He settled for just clearing his throat, wondering if that would snap Thomas out of his stare.
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Post by Thomas Fan Qiwang on Apr 26, 2016 8:25:17 GMT -8
Thomas didn't know what to say. He was pretty sure that Kangwan had caught him staring just the same way that he'd caught himself staring, but he didn't have any clue what came next, since Kangwan didn't say anything either. He was basically saved from having to make a decision by the school bell ringing. He looked away, jumping a little bit at the surprise of the noise and said, "Um, thank you, you've made me feel a lot better. We should, um, hang out at some point if you'd like, after school or something if you have time, though I have track practice for a while first."
He stood up and looked back at Kangwan before heading for the door and asked ruefully, "How much is it obvious that I've been crying?"
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Post by Kim Kangwan on Apr 29, 2016 22:23:03 GMT -8
Kangwan felt his blush intensify as it was suggested they should hang out sometime. "Y-yeah that... um.. sounds goods." He stumbled, accidentally slipping into Korean by the end of his sentence, which only intensified his embarrassment. At least he gave a thumbs up, to show Thomas he agree.
He stopped behind Thomas, feeling like his cheeks were finally cooling down when he caught Thomas' eyes at the question. He looked away quickly, "Really nice." He squeaked, before looking like a deer caught in headlights. "I mean you look fine!" He felt like dying. This was probably the most flustered he'd ever gotten in front of someone ever. He coughed, brushing past Thomas, "it's not able to be notice..." He began before running off to hide in the bathroom near the offices. "Dear God, if you're up there. Please don't make me go through that again. Having a crush on someone is really weird. Amen." He said in half-Korean and half-English, leaning against the stall door with a sigh. He didn't particularly believe in a higher being, but he'd gotten used to praying for random things. Sometimes it even worked.
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Post by Thomas Fan Qiwang on Apr 29, 2016 22:54:11 GMT -8
Thomas smiled and blushed and looked down again, not trusting his face, and murmured, "Thanks," before turning and rushing towards class. He didn't want to be late for math and at least Calc would distract him from the weird welling of feelings in his chest and just the feeling of being off balance. Math was simple and it did what he wanted it to.
He spent his classes for the rest of the day weirdly dazed but feeling a lot better than he had been worried he might have. He kept thinking about Kangwan when he stopped focusing though, and then he'd turn pink and feel nervous that someone would know what he was thinking about somehow. He was glad that he didn't share many classes with his teammates because it meant that there wasn't anyone trying to get out of him which girl he had a crush on. He'd seen them doing it to others, and it was not something that sounded fun to him.
He was relieved when he made it all the way to track practice at the end of the day, getting there just in time since he was coming from auto shop which was clear on the other side of campus. It was hurdles day for him, though he of course had to do some of his sprint ladders just to keep on that. Hurdles were fun though, and they required concentration.
He rolled his eyes a little bit when he noticed that a gaggle of people, mostly underclassmen girls but some upper class men and some boys had gathered to watch practice. He didn't really see what was so interesting about it. They didn't tend to be loud the way that some of the audiences that would gather for say basketball practice could be though, so he didn't really mind it too much.
He got into a pattern, not really paying much attention to other things, warm up was fine, and so were sprint ladders. He was doing practice runs for hurdles though when things went a little strange. He was on his third run through, when he caught his toe one the last hurdle and it sent him flying. He landed fine, it wasn't like it was the first time that this had ever happened, but he raised his hand to his cheek, realizing that as he'd skidded he'd managed to skin that and his elbows and knees a little too. He rolled his eyes at himself and told the coach, "Can I go to the health room to get bandages and clean this up? I'll be back out in fifteen."
The coach shooed him off, rather used to this sort of thing because it happened, and the scrapes weren't too bad. He told Thomas, "Go back to sprint ladders when you get back though, don't want to do a repeat of that and make them worse."
He nodded and headed over to the health room at a jog, laughing at himself a little bit and wincing when it pulled the scrape on his cheek. He muttered to himself, "That was not my brightest moment, of course there was an audience."
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Post by Kim Kangwan on May 1, 2016 23:10:57 GMT -8
Kangwan didn't really know why he had decided to hang around the track after school. Okay, he did know. But it was like he was going to actually do anything about it. He hid under the bleachers, knowing his pink hair and sweater would be too obvious, and he pretended to do homework, though he was doing anything but. Thomas was a really good athlete though. And the more he thought it, the more he felt like he was blushing. He was pulling off his sweater when he heard a few condescending "ooo's" from above, and looked to the field in time to see Thomas lifting himself off his stomach. It seemed like he had fallen. Kangwan fixed his salmon pink shirt before digging through his backpack, pulling out some band-aids, also pink, and rushing after Thomas. Guess being on track and field, it'd make sense he's fast. He though to himself in Korean, causing him to blurt out in Korean as well. "니 얼굴 괜잖아요?!" He screeched before grabbing Thomas's arm, finally catching up just before the offices. He took a moment to catch his breath, holding out the bandages. Swallowing his next gasp, he looked to Thomas. "I mean, is your face okay?" He corrected himself.
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Post by Thomas Fan Qiwang on May 2, 2016 14:33:37 GMT -8
Thomas stopped in surprise when Kangwan caught up to him. He was caught somewhere between a wince and a smile at him, but before he could think any farther than that part, there was a wolf whistle and a teasing call from the track that they were still in sight of. Thomas gritted his teeth and shouted over his shoulder, "Fuck off Walters," before grabbing Kangwan's shoulder and steering them in the direction of the office where he'd been heading. He said softly, face pretty much the same color as Kangwan's shirt, "Come on, I need to go wash the track out of my face before I put any bandages on it, and I could probably use another set of hands, but that's not the right kind of bandages, I've got at least three other scrapes. I'm fine though, it was more dramatic looking than it actually was, track burn is just a pain, and of course it's hot cause track burns are worse and I'm wearing a tank top and shorts."
When they got to the health office, Thomas didn't bother getting the nurse, instead grabbing the bigger bandages and gauze pads along with a bottle of disinfectant and some rubbing alcohol. He winced as he wiped down the scrape on his face with rubbing alcohol and then put a bandage over it carefully. He'd done this sort of thing enough times that it wasn't that big a deal. He told Kangwan, "The face was the easy part though, the ones on my arms are the ones I'm actually going to need help with, and the big one on my leg is awkward."
He twisted checking for any other sore spots, and swore when his hand came away bloody from what had felt like a bruise on his back, but apparently was actually another scrape. With the careless ease of an athlete used to changing rooms and such, he pulled the tank top off, and turned asking, "How bad a scrape is that, it's stained my shirt if nothing else which is obnoxious. I'm definitely going to need an extra hand with that one cause I can't see it."
While he got started on cleaning and bandaging the smaller scrapes on his shins, he handed the supplies to Kangwan and said, "Do you think that you could clean up the one on my back and slap something over it. I don't want it bleeding all over."
Suddenly the potential awkwardness of the situation caught up with him, and he stuttered out, "I can always call the nurse to help if you'd rather not. I know that it's kind of a mess, but I promise it's really not that bad, I've done this sort of thing before, but at least this time I wasn't landing in the sand pit."
Thoughts of dealing with his teammates started swirling through his head when he realized that he'd walked off with Kangwan, and they were going to make assumptions, and he was suddenly worried.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on May 4, 2016 9:54:20 GMT -8
Kangwan blushed as he was ushered to the nurses office. He felt himself blushing a bit as Thomas pulled off his tank top, looking at the scrape on his back. He was staring at it for a moment before shaking his head, his hair falling over his eyes, "I-I don't mind helping..." He muttered, taking a bit of gauze to clean up his back. He smiled a bit once it was almost clean, "It looks like this one's just bleeding a lot. I think it will be okay with a small band-aid." He said, giving Thomas a smile. His face fell as he noticed a strange look on Thomas' though. "Is everything okay? I don't think anything will scar..." He assured the other boy.
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Post by Thomas Fan Qiwang on May 5, 2016 8:44:50 GMT -8
Thomas smiled at Kangwan and said, "Thanks. I'm honestly not too worried about the scars, I've got plenty of little ones here and there from this sort of thing. Though I'm glad that the one on my face looks like it probably won't. People ask questions about face scars, and that sounds annoying."
He noticed Kangwan blushing, and only then did it click in his head that he'd just stripped down to nothing but the flimsy track shorts in front of the other boy, and he flushed a little bit as well. He was so used to sports situations, where sometimes they would even practice without their shirts if it was really hot, or things like that, that he really hadn't been thinking about it.
He tried to think up how to explain what was going through his head as he rinsed the blood out of his shirt, glad that it was a dark colored one and the stain wouldn't show to badly. He was about good to go back to practice, though his coach might see the extent of the scrapes and send him home because he didn't want him bleeding all over things. Thomas spoke slowly at last, "I'm just kind of worried about dealing with my teammates. Some of them are kind of jerks, and well, I think that after that they're probably going to be jerks to you, and I don't want that. I'm used to them being jerks to me, but I'm also trying really hard not to get in more fights at school cause I'm on the verge of getting in big trouble over them if they keep going, and I also just don't like letting them get to me like that."
He paused, looking over at Kangwan, not quite sure what to say next, and for just a moment, getting caught staring at him, noticing again how cute the other boy was. He stuttered out, reaching out to ruffle Kangwan's hair to keep himself from getting closer or hugging him again or doing something that he couldn't step back from as just being friendly, "You're w-way to nice for them to be jerks to, and they'll do it anyhow, and it's going to make me mad at them."
He hesitated and added quietly, blush spreading on his cheeks again, "Thank you though, it was nice to have someone worried about me like that."
He looked down, realizing he was still holding his shirt and tugged in back on slightly damp, needing something to do with his hands. He added quietly again, "I should head back out there, but you don't have to follow me if you don't want. I would like to hang out later, but I don't want you to have to deal with my teammates if you don't want to."
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Post by Kim Kangwan on May 6, 2016 12:16:01 GMT -8
Kangwan blinked up at him as his hair got ruffled. He was pouting a bit, but he didn't really know why. A part of him told him Thomas didn't want him hanging around, another part was reasoning and telling him it was because Thomas didn't want to see him get hurt. There was nothing bullies could do him though that could possibly be worse than what he'd faced in the last year, though. He was sure of that. A part of him still welcomed the idea of joining his mother and brother.
A shook his head, "No, I do... And I'll still go back because I left my things there..." He said, embarrassed to admit he'd been hanging out by the field even before this. He took a breath, a bit embarrassed to ask Thomas on even a pseudo-date, so instead, he just chuckled a bit. "I hear that ice cream makes scratches hurt less." He suggested, hoping Thomas would go for that, because it was a hot day and Thomas was stuck outside practicing for a while longer anyway.
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Post by Thomas Fan Qiwang on May 6, 2016 22:34:11 GMT -8
Thomas stared for a second at the pouting face that Kangwan was making, and then had to look away, color rising in his cheeks again, though process going, I wonder what it would be like to kiss him, oh shit. He knew that his haze of self-denial had been hanging on by a thread recently, and he kind of knew that he had a crush on Kangwan, it was kind of hard to miss, especially after Kangwan was actually talking to him, and being nice to him, and just, he was really really cute.
Thomas said, soft and stuttering, "J-just, if they say something completely obnoxious, I am not allowed to fight with fists, or well feet or anything like that. I can say nasty things back all I want, but no hitting, I've gotten in enough trouble for that."
He took a deep breath and squared his shoulders, wincing just a tiny bit at the tug of the scrape on his hip, and turned to head back to the track. He told Kangwan, "I really don't object to you being around, I like it honestly, I just don't want them to hurt you in some way. And, um, ice cream sounds nice, even if that is silly. There's a good stand for it down on the beach if you want."
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Post by Kim Kangwan on May 8, 2016 0:33:56 GMT -8
Kangwan blinked a few times before nodding. "I understand..." He said, before grinning widely at Thomas. "If they mess with me, maybe I can fight them!" He said excitedly, throwing a punch right at Thomas' shoulder. He may as well have just been trying to toss air around though, and it didn't even make much of a sound. Kangwan stared at it for a moment before retracting his hadn, looking at it confused. He pouted a bit before his lips curled into an embarrassed smile, "heh, I really thought I was stronger than that. I guess I should really work out, or at least practice dance, more often." He said, trying to wave off his embarrassment.
His eyes were practically sparkling as the agreement to get ice cream, "Really? Oo! I wanna try it!" He said excitedly.
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Post by Thomas Fan Qiwang on May 8, 2016 0:50:39 GMT -8
Thomas burst into laughter as Kangwan pulled back his punch. He couldn't make the laughing stop, and he had to lean over biting his lip and grinning as little huffs of laughter crept out. Between them he managed to get out, "Oh, please not, don't try to fight them, it would be the most ridiculous for you to get in trouble not only for fighting but for fighting badly, and then I'd have to wade in and rescue you, and then I'd get in trouble again, which is what you're trying to avoid."
When his laughing settled down, he said, "No really, don't worry too much. If they're jerks, I'll use big words on them and they'll be confused about whether I was insulting them or not."
As he held open the door for them to make their way back, he added, "Looking forward to going to get ice cream with you after practice is going to help me not get in a fight if they say something horrible though."
He started the walk back towards the track, not picking up speed this time, not quite wanting the moment to end and letting his arm bump lightly against Kangwan's shoulder a few times as they walked.
When he got closer to the track though, he put some space between them and said softly, "See you after," before jogging back towards where his coach was waiting."
Before he got there though, one of the other juniors on the team, who seemed in particular to not like him, intercepted him, voice taunting, and just loud enough to carry a bit, but not so much that the coach would hear, "Slacking off on practice, star boy."
Thomas crossed his arms, thinking, ice cream after practice with Kangwan, only if I don't get in a fight, otherwise I'll be stuck in offices, "In case it escaped your notice, I was bleeding and it's generally considered bad form to leave too much blood on the track."
His teammate sneered, "I bet you just did it to get a chance to make time with your boyfriend."
Thomas stiffened, "Leave your fantasies about what I do with my time out of this."
He didn't quite know where that comeback came from, he had the sneaking suspicion he'd read it somewhere, but for once, he seemed to have taken the jerk aback somewhat. Before the exchange could continue, the coach came up to them and barked, "Martin get back to practice. Fan, you're a mess, go home. I don't want you bleeding on more things, and you've got two more days before the meet."
Thomas was half tempted to protest, but then he nodded and said softly, "Thanks coach. I'll be ready for standard practice tomorrow."
He went back to the stands to grab his stuff, avoiding the locker rooms and looking for Kangwan to let him know that he was going to head back to some of the bathrooms on campus to get himself changed. He'd learned that much about dodging the fights.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on May 8, 2016 9:35:58 GMT -8
Kangwan wasn't really paying attention to his homework, still, and he watched a bit nervously as Thomas seemed to get caught up in another argument. Thomas' teammates were really bullies. He frowned, noticing the coach thankfully intervene before it could get too bad. He felt himself blush as he realized Thomas was looking for him, and he crawled out from under the bleachers, catching the other boy's eyes.
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Post by Thomas Fan Qiwang on May 9, 2016 11:01:08 GMT -8
Thomas finally spotted Kangwan and smiled at him, walking over to where he was. He repeated to himself, it doesn't matter that they can see you, over and over. He'd run out of the ability to care what his teammates thought about him. If it didn't matter what he did as far as what mean stuff they would say, then he was going to do something that made him feel happier. That had to be the better choice.
When he got close to Kangwan, he pointed in the direction of the main campus, "I'm going to go tidy up a bit on the way, but coach told me to go home so that I didn't bleed all over the track. I'd rather we went and got ice cream though. It's still not doing something likely to lead to another wipe out like that, so I'm not likely to start bleeding on things again."
He realized that he sounded a lot more nonchalant than he actually felt, which was a surprisingly good feeling. He looked at Kangwan and blushed a little bit again, smiling at him nonetheless. He hoped that Kangwan actually felt the same way about wanting to be around him.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on May 10, 2016 18:31:24 GMT -8
Kangwan listened to Thomas curiously, then smiled and perked up, trying to ignore how happy he felt at Thomas wanting to get ice cream with him. He nodded, taking a breath of relief, "Lemme pack up my stuff real quick." He said, turning before Thomas could say anything and packing up his things. He had left it pretty messy, but maybe later he'd actually be in a mood to finish his homework for once. His smile faded for a moment as he wondered if his dad would be home that night.
His hesitation only last a couple minutes, and by the time he turned back to face Thomas, he was smiling again. He picked up his backpack, stumbling backwards a bit at the unexpected weight. "Damned homework..." He cursed in Korean, snarling at his backpack strap as he finally got it over his shoulder. His smile turned a bit more embarrassed, and he let out a nervous laugh. "Okay, I'm ready!" He told Thomas.
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