Songwriter/Producer, Bartender.
Bisexual.
Dating Jiuk.
10/09/1993.
28.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Etienne.
Offline.
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Post by Hwangjung Lee on Feb 12, 2016 1:25:04 GMT -8
Hwangjung was surprised that they had gotten there so fast, and he looked around. He said thoughtfully, "It's the purple house right across from the park, it's kind of hard to miss, but well, I wouldn't object to driving around and killing more time."
He paused, his eyes lighting on the parking lot that he usually directed rare guests to. He smirked just a little bit to himself for a moment and then said, "Or you know, the parking lot for the park is completely empty at this time of night, but there aren't any restrictions on when you can park there, and we could kill time without you, um, needing to focus on the road for a little bit."
He didn't quite have the nerve to add by making out, but he definitely was thinking it very loudly. He wasn't quite sure how to navigate the early relationship part of things, especially now that he was out of college.
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Secretary at LGBT Center/Lyricist.
Homosexual.
Dating Hwangjung Lee.
08/21/1993.
30.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
I heard that even in space you can hear the scratch of a “I-, I-, I-, I… love you.” - Phil Kaye
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Post by Jiuk Robertson on Feb 12, 2016 15:23:27 GMT -8
"Oh, sure." Z said before really thinking about it. "Oh." He said, looking like a deer in headlights only for a moment. "Yeah... Okay..." He said, his voice low. He felt a few butterflies flutter around in his stomach at the thought, but he liked kissing Hwangjung and it had been quite a while since he yearned for someone's kisses like that. He pulled into the parking lot, parking a bit crooked in a spot, but not bothering to straighten the car since there was one, maybe two other cars on the other side of the parking lot. He put the car in park, looking at his lap as he questioned where to go from here. Even in his previous relationship, it took a while of Xavier prodding him to start things before he'd actually make his own moves. He furrowed his eyebrows, wondering if he should say something, do something, or neither.
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Songwriter/Producer, Bartender.
Bisexual.
Dating Jiuk.
10/09/1993.
28.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Etienne.
Offline.
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Post by Hwangjung Lee on Feb 13, 2016 20:26:05 GMT -8
Hwangjung unbuckled his seatbelt once they came to a full stop, wiggling around in the seat a bit so that he could look over at Jiuk. He didn't want to make him uncomfortable, though from the way that Jiuk had responded to his hinted suggestion, he was pretty sure that they were on the same page. He looked at Jiuk for a moment, deciding not to lean over and try to kiss him first, at least not without permission. Instead, he reached up and ran his fingers through Jiuk's hair and said, "It looks really nice tonight. How did you get the color?"
He knew that it wasn't really what he'd had in mind initially, but his instincts were telling him to move slowly on this one, and while there was a part of him that would be perfectly content just making out in the car, he wanted to feel out both of their comfort levels on the matter, and get more outright permission from Jiuk before doing more than kissing him on the cheek the way he had earlier.
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Secretary at LGBT Center/Lyricist.
Homosexual.
Dating Hwangjung Lee.
08/21/1993.
30.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
I heard that even in space you can hear the scratch of a “I-, I-, I-, I… love you.” - Phil Kaye
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Post by Jiuk Robertson on Feb 14, 2016 8:29:46 GMT -8
Z smiled softly, leaning ever so slightly into the soft touches. "Mmm... Sammy takes me places when he's planning cosplays. Most of the time I end up bringing home hair chalk, or something of the like. So I have a lot of temporary spray colors or hair chalk at home that I'll play around with. Though it was a lot more visible when I had blonde hair. Unfortunately most of the spray colors aren't as vibrant on dark hair." He said, pouting a bit by the end. He finally unbuckled his seatbelt, turning so one leg was on the seat and he was leaning to the side, his shoulder against his seat. But still, he continued leaning into the touches. The butterflies were still there, but he was growing more comfortable with the prior suggestion.
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Songwriter/Producer, Bartender.
Bisexual.
Dating Jiuk.
10/09/1993.
28.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Etienne.
Offline.
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Post by Hwangjung Lee on Feb 21, 2016 2:52:44 GMT -8
Hwangjung nodded about the comment about colors not working as well on dark hair. He said, "Yeah, I died my hair a whole slew of interesting colors in college and high school, but I stopped because I got really frustrated with having to bleach it to death to get any sort of decent color, though for a while I'd put blue or green or purple over it without bleach because it gave my hair really interesting highlights in the light. It's been a long time since I've put any sort of color in it now though."
When Jiuk turned more towards him, he leaned over and dropped his forehead against the other man's lightly. He didn't move any more than that though, waiting to see how Jiuk would respond. He said softly, "What do you want to do?"
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Secretary at LGBT Center/Lyricist.
Homosexual.
Dating Hwangjung Lee.
08/21/1993.
30.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
I heard that even in space you can hear the scratch of a “I-, I-, I-, I… love you.” - Phil Kaye
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Post by Jiuk Robertson on Feb 21, 2016 8:25:49 GMT -8
Z contemplated that idea for a moment, his head tilted slightly as he looked off into the distance, "There's an idea..." He said with a thoughtful nod. He returned his attention to Hwangjung for a moment as their foreheads touched before looking down and playing with his fingernails, smiling shyly. "I'm not opposed to what you were hinting at earlier..." He said softly, breathlessly, as he blushed a bit.
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Songwriter/Producer, Bartender.
Bisexual.
Dating Jiuk.
10/09/1993.
28.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Etienne.
Offline.
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Post by Hwangjung Lee on Feb 27, 2016 16:36:12 GMT -8
Hwangjung didn't say anything then, just brought his hand up to cup the back of Jiuk's head and threaded his fingers into Jiuk's hair. He leaned in just a little bit closer, bringing their lips together gently for a moment, before pulling back a tiny bit to check Jiuk's reaction one more time, and leaning in for a longer, deeper kiss. Jiuk's hair felt nice under his hand, and he was somewhat amused under everything else as he braced himself against the seat of Jiuk's car because he hadn't made out in someone's car in a long time.
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Secretary at LGBT Center/Lyricist.
Homosexual.
Dating Hwangjung Lee.
08/21/1993.
30.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
I heard that even in space you can hear the scratch of a “I-, I-, I-, I… love you.” - Phil Kaye
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Post by Jiuk Robertson on Feb 28, 2016 21:27:53 GMT -8
Z returned the kisses in shy content, shifting a bit awkwardly in the car so he could more openly accept Hwangjung's advances. What felt like hours, but was probably only a few minutes at most, passed before his mind reminded him of the last time he'd had physical contact in a sexual manner. He pulled back with a soft gasp, his eyes drifting away from Hwangjung as he glared at his reflection in the rear view mirror, staring back at his own eyes as if his mind had betrayed him. He looked down, holding Hwangjung's hands with careful hands.
Again it felt like hours, but this time, only a few minutes passed before he shook his head softly, "I'm sorry, I just..." He began, fading off as he realized he didn't know what to say to finish that sentence. He was reminded of his rapist? That really wasn't very nice, memories... He thought to himself, biting his bottom lip absently, because he knew for a fact Hwangjung was not like that, and he wanted to believe he'd be okay with getting more serious. He took a breath before adding in, "I really... l-lo..." He paused again, swallowing hard, focusing on the words he wanted to say. But this time, his stutter wasn't there for the nerves of memories, but the nerves of saying what he wanted to say. "I love you." He said softly to his and Hwangjung's hands. "But r-right now, my mind isn't in the right place." He added, just barely louder than his previous words.
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Songwriter/Producer, Bartender.
Bisexual.
Dating Jiuk.
10/09/1993.
28.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Etienne.
Offline.
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Post by Hwangjung Lee on Feb 28, 2016 23:03:47 GMT -8
Hwangjung leaned back against his own seat, trying to make sure that Jiuk had the space that he needed, and tried his best to project a feeling of relaxed. He was worried for Jiuk, but he was pretty sure that it was important that he show that he was OK with however Jiuk needed things to be. His heart picked up a little bit some of Jiuk's words, but he focused on the main thing of importance. Jiuk had kept on holding his hand, so he carefully stroked the back of Jiuk's hand with his thumb, trying to make gentle, soothing motions. He kept his voice quiet and gentle when he spoke, "You don't need to apologize. Remember, your pace, what you're comfortable with. I'm not in a rush, and I want you to feel safe and happy."
He squeezed Jiuk's hand in his lightly, and he smiled at him, adding quietly in Korean, pretty sure that it would be a phrase Jiuk would recognize, "Love you too."
He was a little bit uncertain of those words. He definitely really liked Jiuk, but it was a little bit early to him, but if nothing else, he was getting to be a little in love with Jiuk, not all the way there, but there was a seed, and he had a suspicion that it was what Jiuk sort of needed to hear right then, that he was wanted and valued, but also that his decision and boundary was respected and heard.
He asked, "What would be best for you right now, me staying out here and just sitting with you for a bit, or me going ahead on in and us meeting tomorrow as planned?"
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Secretary at LGBT Center/Lyricist.
Homosexual.
Dating Hwangjung Lee.
08/21/1993.
30.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Redeim.
Offline.
I heard that even in space you can hear the scratch of a “I-, I-, I-, I… love you.” - Phil Kaye
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Post by Jiuk Robertson on Feb 29, 2016 11:29:52 GMT -8
Z was relieved that Hwangjung was indeed such a good guy. Xavier, you'd be okay with him, I think. He thought to himself, though his heart gave a small pang of hurt at the thought at the same time. He tried to think over the two options. He did want someone with him, but sometimes being alone was better, and since he didn't want the night to end, he was reluctant to say they could meet up tomorrow, or rather, later.
He blinked a couple times, realizing how heavy his eyes were, and he figured going home was probably a good idea regardless of whether or not he wanted to stay and try and get over this hurdle. He just hoped he'd be able to sleep alright. He gave a cute half-smile, "It depends, so don't assume today's answer will be the same all the time this happens, but since I'm also finally feeling the weight of staying up this late, I think for tonight we should part ways. I look forward to seeing you tomorrow though."
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Songwriter/Producer, Bartender.
Bisexual.
Dating Jiuk.
10/09/1993.
28.
Rooster (WA)
Authored by Etienne.
Offline.
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Post by Hwangjung Lee on Mar 3, 2016 2:16:30 GMT -8
Hwangjung smiled warmly at Jiuk and squeezed his hand one more time before letting to and putting his hand on the handle of the door. He said, "Just keep me in the loop with how you're feeling on this sort of thing, OK? I don't want to push you into things you aren't comfortable with, but I promise I won't assume one way or the other."
He paused for a moment and added, "I'll see you after both of us get a bit of sleep. Get home safe, OK?"
He smiled and climbed out of the car, giving Jiuk a little wave as he closed the door, and blowing a quick kiss before he headed across the street to home. For all that the night had had a slightly faulty ending, he overall felt pretty good about the entire thing. Jiuk was sweet, and he just hoped that the other man would believe his reassurances.
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