Idol - Vocalist/Songwriter / Seoul Cyber University Student (2025) Major: Applied Music.
Bisexual.
Dating Thomas Fan.
10/24/1999.
23.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on Nov 29, 2015 12:12:03 GMT -8
Kangwan's eyes widened, and he looked down, feeling his own lump in his throat as tears pricked at his eyes. "I-I'm sorry..." He choked out, biting his bottom lip as he tried to think of what else to say. He swallowed, feeling like there was someone holding his throat closed. "A-actually..." He began, his breath hitching as he tried to keep it steady. "There might be... s-some times where I will be absent..." He explained, not able to look up at his teacher. His hands gripped tightly onto the edge of his sweater. "I lost my mom and brother last month and..." He couldn't finish, admitting it had been a hard month for him was too much, and the water well finally broke. He hid his face with his sleeves, trying to wipe away tears quickly, trying not to openly cry or start sobbing in front of another teacher.
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High School Music/Language Teacher.
Gay.
Dating Theo.
01/29/1992.
30.
Sheep (WA)
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Post by Yunjin Lin on Nov 30, 2015 0:27:21 GMT -8
Yunjin looked at Kangwan with eyes full of sympathy, and he said very gently, "I understand. It is hard, especially at first. Just let me know what is going on if you are absent, and I will be sure to clear it with the school. Grief is hard, and you should take care of yourself."
He paused for a little bit, not quite sure how to offer comfort in this situation, since it wasn't entirely on to offer a student a hug, even if it looked like he really needed one. He settled on, "Let me know if there is anything that I can do to help, alright? Even if it is just to have someone to listen who gets it. I was close to my sister, really close, and I still miss her a lot, but it will get easier to remember the good parts with time."
He bit his lip, unsure of what else to say, and feeling a touch of dampness in his own eyes. He wiped at the corners of his eyes a bit with his own sleeves, and focused on smiling as well as he could at Kangwan. He hoped that it would get through to the kid that there were people who would be there for him.
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Idol - Vocalist/Songwriter / Seoul Cyber University Student (2025) Major: Applied Music.
Bisexual.
Dating Thomas Fan.
10/24/1999.
23.
Rabbit (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on Dec 1, 2015 7:36:54 GMT -8
Kangwan hid his face from the teacher, but gave him a nod. He would like this teacher, he knew, because Yunjin knew what he was going through. It took him a few minutes to calm down, and he patted his face lightly once he was confident no more tears would spill forth. "I'm sorry..." he said, looking away. He gave the teacher an appreciative smile, "Thank you." He added, his hands finally moving back into his lap. "I know it will get better in time but it's been rough." He swallowed hard, though he felt like maybe he was all cried out for now. "But I'll be sure to let you know." He cleared his throat, shifting a bit uncomfortably, "I feel a bit bad saying it, but I'm a little glad that you lost your sister. Not because you lost her, but because at least I can know there will be a teacher on my side when I need it." He admitted honestly, looking adamantly at the desk.
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High School Music/Language Teacher.
Gay.
Dating Theo.
01/29/1992.
30.
Sheep (WA)
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Post by Yunjin Lin on Dec 2, 2015 3:57:29 GMT -8
Yunjin nodded along as Kangwan spoke and he said, "I understand what you mean. It helps to have someone who understands."
He added, "And yes, I'll definitely be the teacher on your side when you need it, whether it's about this or other things. You'll see me a fair amount between the classes you'll be taking with me, but I'm around in my office after school for a little while every day except Wednesdays when the GSA meets after school because I'm the mentor for that."
He realized he had no idea if Kangwan would even know what he was talking about. He was pretty sure that there wasn't an equivalent thing in Korea, though that could have changed since the last time he had visited. He had to pause for a moment and hope that that wouldn't be a culture shock thing that would make the kid uncomfortable.
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Idol - Vocalist/Songwriter / Seoul Cyber University Student (2025) Major: Applied Music.
Bisexual.
Dating Thomas Fan.
10/24/1999.
23.
Rabbit (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on Dec 2, 2015 16:31:44 GMT -8
Kangwan nodded solemnly. It definitely seemed like he'd cried out all his tears today, but he was still in a low mood. He listened to Yunjin, nodding occasionally. He ended up confused by an acronym, furrowing his eyebrows and tilting his head to the side slightly. "GSA?" He questioned, and his voice was stronger, but still meek.
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High School Music/Language Teacher.
Gay.
Dating Theo.
01/29/1992.
30.
Sheep (WA)
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Post by Yunjin Lin on Dec 3, 2015 4:47:43 GMT -8
Yunjin nodded at Kangwan's question and replied, "I realized as I said that that you might not know what it meant. I'm pretty sure there isn't an equivalent thing in Korea, at least there wasn't last time I was there."
He paused, looking for the right words, and decided to start with actually saying what the acronym meant, "GSA stands for Gay-Straight Alliance. It's a club for students who are Gay, Bi, or otherwise not straight, and also people who are transgender to find support and a safe space, and also for people who support them to help provide that safe space."
He watched Kangwan, hoping that the explanation wouldn't make the kid suddenly not trust him. He knew that such things weren't necessarily as comfortable to talk about in Korea, though Kangwan was enough younger than him that it might be a different attitude than some of his cousins when he had visited when he was younger.
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Idol - Vocalist/Songwriter / Seoul Cyber University Student (2025) Major: Applied Music.
Bisexual.
Dating Thomas Fan.
10/24/1999.
23.
Rabbit (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on Dec 3, 2015 17:24:17 GMT -8
Kangwan felt like he had frozen. That was actually a thing here? It was not spoken of, cut rumors would fly among the KPop Industry about so-and-so being seen romantically with their same gender, and of course there was the games that some people enjoyed too much while others pretended to despise a little too much. Since he had been the youngest in his band, many of them tried to fight having to play certain games with him, like the card passing game, but he had disclosed to a couple very close band mates his sexuality.
"C-" He began, but felt like it was about to sound too eager, too loud. He looked down at the ground and lower his gaze, "Can I join?" He asked finally.
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High School Music/Language Teacher.
Gay.
Dating Theo.
01/29/1992.
30.
Sheep (WA)
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Post by Yunjin Lin on Dec 4, 2015 1:43:19 GMT -8
That had not been the reaction that Yunjin was expecting, at all. He stared momentarily, and then smiled widely at Kangwan, and replied, "Of course. It's open to all students, and I know that the students will be welcoming. You will probably get a lot of curious questions about what things are like for queer kids your and their age in Korea though."
He added slightly ruefully, "I was kind of bracing myself for a negative reaction because of how my cousins were about me, and my mom, and now I feel a touch silly."
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Idol - Vocalist/Songwriter / Seoul Cyber University Student (2025) Major: Applied Music.
Bisexual.
Dating Thomas Fan.
10/24/1999.
23.
Rabbit (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on Dec 4, 2015 7:40:48 GMT -8
"Well..." Kangwan began, a bit embarrassed for exact reasons he couldn't place. "I'm only bisexual, so I could pass as... normal?" He winced, he knew that wasn't the right word, but words still often failed him in English. "But I told a couple of my band mates when I was in Korea, people I really trusted. One of them accepted me, but he was from LA... The other one was still friendly on camera but started avoiding me otherwise." He explained. He realized he wasn't sure if Yunjin knew he had been in a band. "But since I spent a lot of my life training or performing, I could speak from my experience, but not the experience of an average Korean kid." He said honestly.
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High School Music/Language Teacher.
Gay.
Dating Theo.
01/29/1992.
30.
Sheep (WA)
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Post by Yunjin Lin on Dec 5, 2015 16:32:11 GMT -8
The pieces of why Kangwan looked familiar finally clicked together in Yunjin's head at that point. He paused and just stared for a moment, second guessing himself and said, "I hadn't realized that you were an idol in Korea, but that explains why you looked so familiar. I'm pretty sure that one of my best friends and roommates wrote a song for your band. I am years out of date with keeping up with new groups, but he shows me pictures and videos for the songs that he writes. Um, Lee Hwangjung is his name."
He shook his head and looked down, "Sorry, that was a bit of a tangent. But you are definitely welcome at the GSA, and I'm sure that you will meet people there who will be happy to meet you."
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Idol - Vocalist/Songwriter / Seoul Cyber University Student (2025) Major: Applied Music.
Bisexual.
Dating Thomas Fan.
10/24/1999.
23.
Rabbit (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on Dec 7, 2015 7:31:45 GMT -8
Kangwan blinked a few times before the song the teacher was talking about came to mind, and he laughed. "Oh! Yes, it was my favorite song, honestly." He admitted, and it had been. Even now, it was the one song he'd still practice because it was the one song that wouldn't make him cry over happier times, despite the song itself being rather upbeat.
"When do clubs meet?" He questioned, blinking a few times. His emotions were on a roller coaster right now it seemed, but he was going to take this bubbly happiness and ring it dry.
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High School Music/Language Teacher.
Gay.
Dating Theo.
01/29/1992.
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Sheep (WA)
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Post by Yunjin Lin on Dec 9, 2015 3:19:52 GMT -8
Yunjin grinned when Kangwan said that it was his favorite song, and he replied, "Can I tell him you said that? It would make his day, honestly. He stressed out over getting the recording of the demo perfect for that for weeks, and he was so excited when he sold it. I help him with demos pretty often, as does our other roommate, and he probably made both of us rerecord things six or seven times more than usual."
Yunjin paused thoughtfully for a moment, and added, "Hwangjung is bi, you know, and yes, I have permission to tell people that if it makes sense in context. He doesn't mention it in the industry really, but it seemed like something that you might appreciate knowing."
Yunjin nodded to his question and replied, "Most clubs meet after school. GSA is on Wednesday afternoons, but there are generally a few different clubs going on any different afternoon, and some meet more than once a week. A very small number of them meet before school, but they don't tend to be super well attended."
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Idol - Vocalist/Songwriter / Seoul Cyber University Student (2025) Major: Applied Music.
Bisexual.
Dating Thomas Fan.
10/24/1999.
23.
Rabbit (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on Dec 9, 2015 14:26:38 GMT -8
Kangwan smiled warmly. "Sure!" He agreed with a nod. "It's such a light-hearted song, it easy to fall in love with. His eyes widened a bit at the next bit of information. "O-oh? Really?" He asked. He had never really known how to approach any of the idols that had had rumors about their sexuality, so he never really had anyone to talk to about it. "Can I meet him?" He didn't know what he'd say, or ask, or anything. He'd never met any of his songwriters, let alone anyone that was bisexual.
"I'll definitely attend GSA, but are there any other clubs too? Does choir meet after school?" He wanted any reason to not have to go home right after school.
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High School Music/Language Teacher.
Gay.
Dating Theo.
01/29/1992.
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Post by Yunjin Lin on Dec 11, 2015 9:38:40 GMT -8
Yunjin replied, "I suspect that the answer to that will be yes, but I'll check with him."
Yunjin paused for a moment, hearing a certain note in the way Kangwan asked that that made him wonder if the kid didn't want to go straight home. He replied, "Choir meets during school hours, it's sort of halfway between a class and a club for a lot of people, but you'll actually get a grade for it. There are lots of other clubs though, that do meet after school. Everything from dance clubs, to art clubs, to things focused on various cultural backgrounds. There's stuff like debate clubs and mock government clubs too. I can print a list for you and let you look at it later and think over what you'd be interested in."
He thought for a few moments longer before continuing, starting the process of pulling up the document with the clubs list so that he could print it off for Kangwan. He said cautiously, "Are you looking for things to do after school? Even if clubs don't appeal to you, there is always the possibility of finding some sort of after school job. Some things like that even handle students bringing homework to them pretty well."
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Idol - Vocalist/Songwriter / Seoul Cyber University Student (2025) Major: Applied Music.
Bisexual.
Dating Thomas Fan.
10/24/1999.
23.
Rabbit (Korea)
Authored by Redeim.
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Post by Kim Kangwan on Dec 11, 2015 18:50:54 GMT -8
Kangwan nodded, trying to calm down his nerves of meeting the songwriter before even having the confirmed meeting. He blinked a few times to bring him back to the present, rather than thinking of what he'd say when met this other man. "Yes, I'd like that." He confirmed about the club list.
He straightened up a bit, furrowing his eyebrows and tilting his head. "You can do that?" He asked. He was so used to his classmates talking about cram school, and having to go to training himself, he didn't even think about an after school job being a possibility. He sighed, looking away, "I'm really not sure who would hire me, my only job skills are singing and dancing..." He mused bitterly. He did once learn how to make a latte for an event, but one of the older members took over after he had mildly burned his hand.
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