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Post by An Hayun on Jul 29, 2020 21:24:51 GMT -8
Hayun hurried to say, "I'm not mad. I don't think that the others will be either. You're talented and pretty, and you chose to come all the way here to pursue being an idol. Maybe it wasn't a plan that you had for a long time, but you didn't have to say yes if you didn't want to do it. I think moving to an entire other country seems like it shows plenty of dedication. I think that you'll see a mix of people in terms of when they started wanting to do it. But you're here now!"
Hayun hoped that Elena would believe her, and not worry about people not accepting her. She had the kind of energy that was awesome to be around, and it was the sort of thing that seemed to work well for idols from everything that Hayun had watched when she'd been hiding in her room watching everything Kpop for a few years. Elena was the kind of person who could make you smile through the computer screen, she could tell.
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 29, 2020 21:33:16 GMT -8
Elena was relieved to hear it. She had been worried that people would think she wasn't being authentic. "I guess I figured out I have a lot of random worries I didn't know I had. Thank you, unnie," she said, bumping Hayun's foot with her own under the table affectionately.
She picked up some tteokbokki and and offered it the Hayun, "how are you liking the food?"
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Post by An Hayun on Jul 29, 2020 21:53:00 GMT -8
Hayun took the offered food and said, "It's good, but it's also ordinary for me. We order from here a lot, and this is just normal food to me. I'm enjoying watching you react to it more than the food itself."
She added, "Big changes, even good big changes, can be scary and bring up new worries. And you've just had a bunch of big changes!"
She knew that one from personal experience, even lately, being a trainee and starting to feel like she was doing something that she loved again, she felt like she was somehow faking it sometimes and like she didn't deserve to be here. She was glad that Elena seemed to be moving on from those worries much more quickly and smoothly than Hayun had.
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 29, 2020 22:08:33 GMT -8
"Have you had any new or persisting worries?" Elena asked. "I appreciate you listening to my concerns, but just because I'm younger doesn't mean I can't be here for you too, unnie."
She ate another piece of kimbap, "this can't all be easy for you, is it?"
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Post by An Hayun on Jul 29, 2020 23:36:48 GMT -8
Hayun bit back the urge to just laugh at that question. Clinical anxiety meant that it was probably easier to figure out what Hayun was not worried about, but she wasn't ready to tell Elena that quite yet. She focused on something smaller.
She said, "I mean, like we talked about earlier, I'm nervous about if stuff with why I stopped skating comes up. I'm also worried sometimes that I won't be a good enough main vocalist because I had no training before auditioning."
She sighed and said, "That one's getting a little bit better though, with more vocal training I'm feeling more confident."
She hoped that that was enough for Elena to be satisfied with her response.
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 30, 2020 11:38:46 GMT -8
Elena stopped eating and stood up. She went over to Hayun and gave her a back hug. "I'm here for you if you need anything, unnie. We're a team but we're also friends, so if you need to, you can lean on me."
She squeezed her once more before letting go and taking her seat again. "None of us are alone, so you don't have to be nervous." She picked up a piece of kimbap and offered it to Hayun.
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Post by An Hayun on Jul 30, 2020 16:10:12 GMT -8
Hayun did not quite know how to respond to the way Elena went about being encouraging, so she took eating the food that Elena offered her as an opportunity to slowly chew and think. Finally, she replied, keeping her tone as light as possible, "I'm just going to get nervous and worried about all sorts of things, but I try to look at them hopefully, and yes, it's good to have people in our team."
She took another bite of food, not quite sure where to go with this conversation next. Talking about being worried was making her worried, and she wasn't being entirely successful at steering the conversation away.
After a few moments, she asked, "What are you most excited about other than food in Korea?"
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 30, 2020 17:08:13 GMT -8
Elena watched Hayun, curiously. She seemed uncomfortable and Elena was worried she was making her that way. She took note of the big topic jump, and debated how to address it.
"I'll answer your question about what I'm excited about in Korea in a second, but I want to backtrack for a second. If I ever overstep or make you uncomfortable, please just tell me. Just ask if we can move on to another topic." She gestured to the food on the table, "if I wasn't eating, therefore being a little calmer, I don't think I'd notice, so please tell me, okay?"
She took a bite of tteokbokki and then said, "I honestly don't know what I'm excited about. I never really thought about coming here. My grandparents would come visit me in Spain, so this is my first time here, and I'm pretty ignorant of all the things. What would you be excited to show someone who'd never been here before?"
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Post by An Hayun on Jul 30, 2020 17:58:34 GMT -8
Hayun gave a small nod and said, "I'll try to remember that, but I can't promise that I'll always be good about saying something and not just hiding or trying to change the topic."
Hayun was relieved that she had a good answer to that question, at least for Elena, because normally, that would also be a question that would have startled her and she'd have had trouble answering. There weren't many things that she'd been excited about in the past few years, though that was getting better. She said, "I'd be excited to take you to noraebang. I don't know enough else about what you like to know where it would be good to take you, but that's one of my favorite things to do, and I know you also like to sing."
She gave Elena a little smile, knowing that they had already talked about this a little.
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 30, 2020 18:08:22 GMT -8
"Right! I can't wait to go to noraebang with you!" Elena said, clapping a few times.
"Oh, I really want to try a sauna too! It seems really comfortable, plus I think it's so strange. Koreans seem to be really conservative about most things, but going and getting naked in front of a bunch of strangers is super normal." She didn't really understand but was amenable to the idea. "I want to get naked in front of strangers! And clear out my pores at the same time!"
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Post by An Hayun on Jul 30, 2020 19:30:07 GMT -8
It took Hayun a few moments to make the connection between the two things that Elena was saying. Finally she said, "Saunas and public baths are about getting clean and taking care of your body. Everyone has to do that, and you don't touch other people in them."
She thought about it for a moment and then added, "They're nice though, very relaxing. Not everyone likes them though."
She laughed a little and added, "I'm sure that you'd be very comfortable going to one, except maybe with that they aren't places where you're really going to be touching people."
She had noticed that Elena was very cuddly. It was, after all, hard to miss when interacting with her.
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 30, 2020 19:44:33 GMT -8
Elena laughed, "you think I'm cuddly when I'm naked?" She devolved into giggles.
"Though being naked and nude beaches and women's bare breasts are more normal in Europe and Spain, even Spanish culture has a pause on touching when naked, unless you're being intimate with someone." She crinkled her nose, "even I'd be uncomfortable with someone touching me while I was naked."
She thought about it a little more, "okay, I guess it depends on the situation. Like, I could see splashing and playing around a little while naked, but touching goes into... other things," she tried to explain.
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Post by An Hayun on Jul 30, 2020 21:19:12 GMT -8
Hayun shrugged and replied, voice teasing and clearly holding back laughter of her own, "As far as I could tell, you're touchy all the time. It sounds like you'd be fine then, and you might enjoy the experience."
She scrunched up her nose at the thought of nude beaches and said, "I don't think that a beach would be where I'd want to be wearing nothing though, that's confusing."
She was getting to the point where she could happily eat more, but she knew that if she ate too much now, she would regret it at practice later, and she could always eat more after practice. She said, "I'm about done with food for now. Don't eat until you're super full, just until you're not hungry anymore. Practice will find a way to make you regret being super full."
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Post by Elena Moon on Jul 30, 2020 21:44:30 GMT -8
Elena paused with chopsticks full of food in front of her mouth, "I forgot about practice," she knew she shouldn't put the food back down, so she ate it then set down her chopsticks. "I'm going to regret it," she said with her hand on her stomach.
"Nude beaches aren't bad, so long as you're at the right nude beach. Nude beaches aren't really about going into the ocean and playing, they're about getting tanned with no lines. Unfortunately, there are some nude beaches notorious for other activities, but that just sounds unpleasant to me, especially with sand." She shivered.
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Post by An Hayun on Jul 30, 2020 21:50:02 GMT -8
Hayun said, "Ohhh, that kind of makes sense. Getting tanned isn't so much a thing here. A lot of people try really hard not to get tanned in fact. I don't really care one way or the other, but sometimes there's a lot of push for people to have lighter skin, though it's getting better, especially because more people are willing to talk about that not being a good beauty standard now."
She shrugged and added, "Shieon-unnie was really pretty with her tan from Thailand. I mean she's still really pretty, but she says that she misses having the tan, and I kind of agree."
Hayun knew that she was smiling talking about her favorite unnie, but she didn't entirely know why.
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